Time waits for no man

I'm temporarily not playing much poker. The last week I've only had a chance to play in 3 MTT's and no $'s and on two of those occassions I was at parties at other peoples houses, not good for concentrating ! I must remind myself that these wasted hours were about poor preparation and mental state when I look back at my log for September. So much going on at the moment, it's birthday season, its autumn, the nights are drawing in, oh and there's a solar and lunar eclipse this month !! Yikes ! Time for a redefinition of me. An 8 year long emotional defense mechanism is about to be rewired... Poker will have to be just a glorified hobby for the next week or three.