The last couple of weeks have been enlightening. Today, finally, though that makes it sound like I've been longing for it when I haven't, today I feel the desire to play winning poker. So tonight I'll be back out there, re-learning what I thought I knew.
Some moments of enlightenment :
* I often only want something because it's difficult to get
* Always being a favourite preflop is no way to win a tournament
* When I achieve something difficult my perspective changes and instead of feeling pride I feel like it was easy
* Like Julia Robers, my personality type is INFP
* Player poker makes me a less moody person
* Work sometimes has a sense of being too important and my reaction is to reject it entirely
* I have to be very focussed to play great poker
* The grass is always greener on the other side
* Poker adds an element of balance to my life
* Focus is not a state that can be forced, but it can be encouraged
* I want to be a great player because I love the game, and to enjoy it to the maximum I must play to the best of my ability
For those you who were mad enough to keep checking the blog, thanks, and I hope you don't feel too neglected. Some of my best friends who I've seen at least once a week for the last 10 years or so haven't seen me for 6-8 weeks, so I hope that puts it into perspective for you.
In the meantime it seems I missed the big build up to the FTOPS, which has a guaranteed $1m prize pool for its main event next Sunday. While this may seem "HUGE", PokerStars has a $1m tournament every week. So it aint that special. Hopefully I'll win entry to both this week, and get to spend Sunday night doing one of my favourite things.