Destination Unknown

Last night I actually let myself get de-stacked with TPTK (AK) on a $50 table at Stars. I can't remember the last time I did that ! It serves me right for attempting a quick half hour session before bed when I should have gone straight to sleep. Oh well, I guess that's one of the bad things about taking a long break from daily sessions, I'm re-learning the lessons and knowledge that pre-christmas would have been automatic.

I'm not sure where my game is going. I feel like I need goals, but I don't think a goal such as "I want to make $1000 in the next 6 months" has as much value as "I want to play at a level of thinking where x% of my decisions are good" or maybe even "I want to play in more than half of the $1M gtd's on Stars this year".

Yes, making money is a good goal for starters, but I could play ABC poker like a robot, make money and never get any better at poker. Maybe I don't need a yardstick at all, perhaps I just want to talk about it to make myself feel like there's a purpose to me watching all these cards fall for hours on end. So I can justify it to those who question it, just because they care. Do I need to justify it ? It's just a game. And I play ok at it. It's not like I have to justify playing CounterStrike for 4 hours of an evening, and I always LOSE at that !

I guess I dont need to know where my game is going, as long as it's going somewhere. Playing the game makes me smile, even today after getting stacked last night, I have the aura of a sagacious man. I think it comes from the confidence of knowing where you're at, even if you don't know how far the distance is that you've still to travel.