Sometimes you have moments in life and at the poker table which are like the scene in the Matrix where Neo sees the world as code for the first time. Seriously, everything that once was random and mysterious makes sense in such a way that you can understand everything that’s happening and 90% of what's about to happen. Bet's, folds, calls are all spot-on and not through luck but perfect reads. It's almost like watching yourself in a movie that you've seen the next 5 minutes of. I miss that feeling, it took a hell of a long time to get close enough to grab it and I've let it drift off again. A large about of discipline is needed now if I'm ever to get my eyes on the prize again.
I played last night in a couple of $5 SNG's and the $3 rebuy sat to the Sunday million. I played average, my hole cards I played well, but I had no reads and feel for where I was. I wasn't into it completely and my mind needs retraining to the meditation like rhythm of the cards. The only thing that'll bring that back is more hours so tonight I'll be on again, giving it my best shot.