If...

..I stopped doing my best to screw myself at the business end of these tournaments I might actually make some decent money in one of the bastards.

Unfortunately instead I get myself in a perfect position to run at the final table with around 50 left and start the poker equivalent of self-harming.

Good grief. I can only hope that this becomes a day which in time I can look back at and say "That was the turning point when I stopped screwing around"

Right now though I'm just the mouth-open dumb-look empty-feeling guy who threw away a shot at $8,900 by going from 3rd with 33 left to out in 33rd for $157.29 and I can't even blame the deck for this one.

"If" isn't good enough. The question should be "When". And the answer needs to be every time I play from this post on.