As your deed is, so is your destiny

It's official, I can't decide what I want to do in life. I know what I don't want, next week I'll pass the 15 year anniversary of working in an office. Though I've done different jobs in that time I've basically set at a desk helping people to move virtual money and make more of it. It doesn't contribute much to the world or give me a lot of satisfaction, it's just something I found myself doing when I left school and was reasonably good at. It certainly wasn't the plan and I can't imagine looking back in another 15 years and thinking "that's it. That's all you did when you had all the choice to do anything you wanted".

I'm not a decisive person, I can usually see both sides of every story and I've got a fairly high level of patience so I don't decide to do things easily. I need to make a decision soon to leave everything I know and take a leap of faith else I fear I will regret it for ever. I don’t think I want to try and play poker for a living or anything, for starts I doubt would be good enough and even if I did scrape a win rate that I could live off I don’t think I'd be able to motivate myself to put enough hours in. I just want a simple job that feels worthwhile, making a small difference to world. Conservation or something like that would probably be my ideal but I know that'd be very difficult to get into other than as a volunteer.

I just needed to get that off my chest. I recently had an awesome weekend in Lisbon, it's jumped in right at the top of my favourite cities. Nice open spaces, excellent transport, everything not far away and the people we met there were beautiful in every way :) I would love to go back really soon, it felt like a very 'liveable' place, and there aren't many capital cities which feel that good.